The business of body image, shame, spirituality and ideals have undermined our best women for decades. This is the story of how a perfect storm of chocolate cake, sorrow, fear, and an encounter with my own plump self overthrew the yogi curse and redeemed the Goddess who adores good and tubby women. At around 11.44am, … More The Goddess Curve ~ the beauty of being a little bit fat.
2019 in Ubud, Bali: The strange fruit of Yoga sours, bloats and swells on the vine as this town heaves with goddesses, shaman, healers, vampires, food addicts and scams – is it time? can we admit it yet? That there is a worm in the soul of our yoga story? Once upon a Time, on a … More Yoga in Ubud, Bali ~ The Worm in the Fruit
Head injuries, psychotic breaks, burns, sex abuse, eating disorders, suicide, molestation, pyramid schemes, fake shaman, predation, ostracism, bullying, porn and drugs… could Bali’s spirituality business be in crisis? Last week in Bali, Canadian spirituality entrepreneur Nik Wood sustained massive brain and head injuries in an ‘accident’ at a healing retreat. The longterm Ubud expat and … More Becoming SuperToxic ~ has Bali’s ‘Spirituality Bubble’ gone bad?
I woke up in a bloodbath after an impromptu cervical biopsy in a luxury surgery in Sydney, Australia. I was supposed to be in safe surgical hands – but what happened in the gynecologist’s chair was an invitation to a spiritual adventure, not a medical one. When I took that road, I was to find … More Cold Knife Vs Blood Rose ~ the dread decisions of Cervical Cancer. Blood Rose Part III
Cancer diagnosis is a sudden, terrifying visa stamp to The Kingdom of The Sick. I took that journey. On the way I was faced with a labyrinth of dread options, strange people, murder stories, nightmares and flickers of hope and brightness that invited me to step in, let go, and fall deeper down the rabbithole. … More The Blood Rose ~ Cervical Cancer ~ the cave you fear to enter. Part II
In 2009 I was diagnosed with critical, dangerous cervical cancer and given the choice of emergency radical hysterectomy and radiation – or death within five years. I didnt take the medicine. I ran. And ten years later I want to tell my story of how cancer saved my life and the gift of that terrifying … More The Blood Rose ~ how cervical cancer saved my life.
As I was walking about in the forest, variously jubilant with the surprising honour of being in old growth wilderness, virtually untouched by the claws of man, or even the nasty vipers of ‘connectivity’, and at other times hunched and bitter over the battles and treasons that are this Age, upon us everywhere, I began … More The Book of Leaf
No, thank you, I don’t want another glass of your fancy shiraz While you lecture me on climate change And the horrors of plastic bags And cotton buds. I don’t really think your worm farm Proves much. And your aboriginal art collection Is a living piece of voodoo. Yes, it’s all so very worrying … More On trying to come home…
The way we’re telling this story… is adding the lethal dose of pain and grief, drip by drip, into all our cups, everywhere. Men are carrying the load for a culture weak with the labours of its awakening. But the pain in women everywhere was felt first, and in terrible degree, by our men… first … More Men Walking Wounded
Letters from Ubud: Dark things tread here…. how vampires, creeps and predators are feasting on the soul of the world – and why it actually matters. [Extracts from notes to editor: This mission has gone sideways. Things are derailed. The bad guys are winning. This story is a goddamn shambles! It’s A war zone out … More The Vampire in the Lotus