She’s a Jealous, Angry, Bitter Menopausal Bitch ~ that’s the mantra the pretty young spirituality teachers began to chant, like wenches at a lynching, when I upset the Vampires of Yoganesia recently in Bali. A nasty business, but an important story, if you want to know the real enemies of good women, everywhere. I’m … More Once Was Beautiful
The business of body image, shame, spirituality and ideals have undermined our best women for decades. This is the story of how a perfect storm of chocolate cake, sorrow, fear, and an encounter with my own plump self overthrew the yogi curse and redeemed the Goddess who adores good and tubby women. At around 11.44am, … More The Goddess Curve ~ the beauty of being a little bit fat.
2019 in Ubud, Bali: The strange fruit of Yoga sours, bloats and swells on the vine as this town heaves with goddesses, shaman, healers, vampires, food addicts and scams – is it time? can we admit it yet? That there is a worm in the soul of our yoga story? Once upon a Time, on a … More Yoga in Ubud, Bali ~ The Worm in the Fruit
Head injuries, psychotic breaks, burns, sex abuse, eating disorders, suicide, molestation, pyramid schemes, fake shaman, predation, ostracism, bullying, porn and drugs… could Bali’s spirituality business be in crisis? Last week in Bali, Canadian spirituality entrepreneur Nik Wood sustained massive brain and head injuries in an ‘accident’ at a healing retreat. The longterm Ubud expat and … More Becoming SuperToxic ~ has Bali’s ‘Spirituality Bubble’ gone bad?
I woke up in a bloodbath after an impromptu cervical biopsy in a luxury surgery in Sydney, Australia. I was supposed to be in safe surgical hands – but what happened in the gynecologist’s chair was an invitation to a spiritual adventure, not a medical one. When I took that road, I was to find … More Cold Knife Vs Blood Rose ~ the dread decisions of Cervical Cancer. Blood Rose Part III
Cancer diagnosis is a sudden, terrifying visa stamp to The Kingdom of The Sick. I took that journey. On the way I was faced with a labyrinth of dread options, strange people, murder stories, nightmares and flickers of hope and brightness that invited me to step in, let go, and fall deeper down the rabbithole. … More The Blood Rose ~ Cervical Cancer ~ the cave you fear to enter. Part II
In 2009 I was diagnosed with critical, dangerous cervical cancer and given the choice of emergency radical hysterectomy and radiation – or death within five years. I didnt take the medicine. I ran. And ten years later I want to tell my story of how cancer saved my life and the gift of that terrifying … More The Blood Rose ~ how cervical cancer saved my life.
Dread spells of freak wickedry boil and slither over in the corridors of power. There are enemies among us. Imaginations and endocrine systems of individuals, everywhere, are hijacked by a bitter chemistry of fear, sorrow, sickness, despair and addiction … yes friends, it’s wakey, wakey time again: and here is the News… ~ * ~ Whispers … More BEAST ~ oh yes, there is very much a hunt on for your mind!
As I was walking about in the forest, variously jubilant with the surprising honour of being in old growth wilderness, virtually untouched by the claws of man, or even the nasty vipers of ‘connectivity’, and at other times hunched and bitter over the battles and treasons that are this Age, upon us everywhere, I began … More The Book of Leaf
A one-day workshop for writers, teachers, mentors, those with stories stuck inside them, and those who seek that path less traveled … the treasure you seek is always inside the cave you fear to enter. What if… the gifts you seek are hidden in the petals of your own dark stories? Thursday February 1 10.30am … More Dark Matters ~ the creative gifts of a troubled life